Fire Has Two Capacities
X Rubicon: Crossing Life, Sex, Love, & Killing in CIA Proxy Wars: An indictment of US Citizens: ignorantia non excusat
"As I continue to process the suffering my Beloved has caused and the suffering he has endured, it is like walking through a raging inferno. Fire has two capacities. Fire can just burn and destroy leaving only destruction and ashes. Fire can also purify and open a space for new life to thrive. For over 40 years Rubicon has been engulfed within an inextinguishable fiery hell. It is only by Grace and fortitude that it did not leave him as a pile of ashes."
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About the author
Pronounced gree-OH-tah. I am a veteran. X Rubicon is Rubicon’s first-hand military experience in CIA proxy wars. The depth of his pain and experience, that I have personally witnessed, moved me to convince him, along with his wife, to open up and detail the events which changed him through time. Ignorance of the American (and other colonial) people is at the heart of much of the cause and effect. I have great respect for Rubicon, all combat veterans, and all who must face the evils of their life or past and actually commit themselves to examination and change. I despise zealots of religion, politics, and money, ego, etc... My writing is ferocious in this regard, yet deeply caring for the person involved in dealing with the propaganda and lies which led to the committing of atrocities. I have great respect for Rubicon and all veterans and all who must face the evils of their life or past and actually commit themselves to examination and change. I was one of the Rangers assigned to track Rubicon in training; I was one of the Rangers assigned to Operation Eagle Claw in Iran; and I was on the Ranger team that also submitted a plan for the mission in Mexico. In researching X Rubicon I interviewed pilots, flight engineers, gunners, spotters, Crew Chiefs, Marines, SEALS, CIA operatives, and more to verify events.
A WITNESSING PERSPECTIVE OF SEAN GRIOBHTHA” & Reviews
"Sean's book truthfully takes the reader through a horrendous 2.5 years of deception and death, and 40+ years of locking away emotions and truth. His compassion comes through as he describes the aftermath of PTSD. This is a narrative that is jarring and unsettling, but there is a sense that knowing the true invites us to change the reality of our love affair with the military. We can wake up, become aware of what we have allowed to happen with the billions of dollars spent to kill and ravage other countries (all in the name of America), and change the trajectory of our role in the world. There is hope if we are honest and learn from our past." (Jules Bond, Editor)
“This book will challenge you. It's intense & it really is an indictment as the subtitle states. It's raw, very vulnerable, bravely written and an honest track into a man's life. It made me look at human suffering, sex, politics, & how impactful a combat military experience really is. I cried many times while reading it. While the subject matter is emotionally rough, the writing itself is smooth and flows easily. It hits you at your own vulnerable parts. Stay with it even when it feels overwhelming. It's well worth it and it will stay with you and bring new awareness of your role in sending young (mostly men) into combat. I highly recommend it.” (Amazon)
“Have you ever wondered what our military (mostly men) are commanded to do & why? If you are like most Americans, you don't really want to know. And at the same time perhaps you have swallowed the lies our government perpetuates telling us it's all in the name of freedom! Wake up!!!
This book is a first hand account of a young man's experience killing as a military scout. And the damage it wreaked on his life for 40+ years.
It's a wake up call!
It's a must read!
It's prophetic & jarring!
And it's not fiction.
It's gut wrenching & real.
My friend gave me this book as a gift. The protagonist's wife wrote a heartfelt foreword. It helped me in understanding my husband's military experience and why he never wanted to talk to me about it. Buy this book! It's a wake up call!!” (Amazon)
“KNOW YOUR ENEMY
“I purchased this book looking for answers for my son, a US Marine combat veteran who served in Afghanistan and Iraq 2003-2007. This has been a 17 year search trying to help my Marine suffering from PTSD which has rendered no answers. I appreciated the story of "Rubicon" as told by his friend, also a combat vet, the author. The book exposes in chilling detail the inner workings of the US military industrial complex as dictated by the CIA whose playground is the world. This book confirmed for me in no uncertain terms what I already knew: Soldiers, Marines and Special Op forces are nothing but chattel to be used by and for this empire to achieve the nefarious goals of corporate America, and I would argue, the central bank which are steering the course of our ill fated empire. Rubicon naively joined the Air Force special ops branch reasoning that the country was not at war, so how dangerous could it be? Immediately Rubicon is plunged into a mind boggling series of covert operations occurring primarily in Central America the goal of which was to destroy weapons caches while supporting the Contras at the behest of the Reagan administration. The amount of killing described in the book is mind blowing, detailing many missions involving hand to hand combat which does not afford any mental protection provided by distance. Predictably, Rubicon suffered extreme mental stress during these missions which eventually forced him to separate from the Air Force before his appointed discharge date. True to form, the retaliation of the military is shocking. Rubicon was subjected to the worst form of mental torture due to his decision to save himself from this insane government. The lack of psychiatric care, the denial of any real problem by the VA is how a military which refuses to be accountable for its own actions chooses to deal with the collateral damage of war: the mental and physical health of its Soldiers and Marines. But this is the empire we live in. Everything, and I mean virtually everything this government does is to protect the money powers, corporate interests, and by extension, the Federal Reserve. If you still believe America is good and defending freedom everywhere, you are in need of a wakeup call which this book dishes out in spades. The author outlines 40 years of emotional pain and self destructive behaviors of Rubicon and the disastrous effects on his beloved family. It is absolute proof he is not a psychopath and has a sensitive soul not seared by his military service (as much as the military makes it their personal mission to turn all military members into automatons who will willingly and without question follow every order). Ultimately the message is one of tenuous hope. Because of Rubicon's wife's love and devotion, Rubicon lives today, unlike the 22 military veterans who commit suicide daily in this country. The price combat vets pay is indescribable, as I know first hand watching my son self destruct over the years like a slow train wreck. As the book cover states, it is an indictment of the American people who prefer entertainment and chasing narcissistic goals over the uncomfortable task of informing oneself. After all, if the public sought the truth, action might be required. Like a group of teenagers, Americans hate the idea of accountability more than anything else. Platitudes such as "Thank you for your service" should suffice. But make no mistake: This government is coming for you and your family. Buy the book. Read the account of Rubicon and ask yourself, is this a government that respects its citizens? A resounding NO. Ask yourself what can we do to correct this situation? Get informed, and above all, Know Your Enemy, because this is an enemy that knows no bounds, has limitless money and weapons, and will not hesitate to use the full force of the American military against anyone who attempts to obstruct the agenda. As for the question of PTSD: There is no cure, little effective treatment other than prevention. Don't let your kid join up or you may spend a lifetime regretting it.” (Amazon)
“This is NOT another patriotic account of war vainglory. It is a raw and vulnerable account of a man coming to terms with what he has done and how he has grown in life. A veteran of CIA proxy conflicts in El Salvador, Guatemala, and Nicaragua has given his story to the author. It is very intense writing, and takes a first hand critical view of the VA, CIA, Presidents, Congress, and especially the American public. I found myself weeping and drawn to the arguments made. It seems geared totally toward combat PTSD, combat veterans, their SO's, young men especially, and an ignorant public. There is plenty of discussion on dealing with an intense PTSD over a life-time, and some advice for sufferers and their SO's and family. It's definitely a different paradigm in this narrative than I've ever read before. The veteran's wife wrote the Foreward and it will definitely grab your heart and conscience.” (Barnes & Noble Editorial Review - AS)
From the “Foreward, Or The Vanguard”
"The voice of this narrative is ferocious. It is also prophetic in its plea to open our eyes to the harsh reality of the military, repentance, and redeeming ourselves. Just as I had to block Rubicon’s nightmare attacks and shout at him to stop, the author representing my Beloved’s voice, shouts at us to wake up and stop the needless killing of our imaginary enemies, the veterans we disrespectively send to slaughter, and the families who then are left to cope with the chaos. Sean’s voice is as sharp as Rubicon’s experience is cutting. Rubicon is a very passionate and intense person, as you will see as you read on. Sean matches this passion and intensity beautifully. In order to face the intensity of this suffering, we need a very ferocious voice to beckon us swiftly and forcibly to the truth of what is happening. We need this because we have been entangled sooo very long in the deceit and there is so much at stake.
"As I continue to process the suffering my Beloved has caused and the suffering he has endured, it is like walking through a raging inferno. Fire has two capacities. Fire can just burn and destroy leaving only destruction and ashes. Fire can also purify and open a space for new life to thrive. For 40 years Rubicon has been engulfed within an inextinguishable fiery hell. It is only by Grace and fortitude that it did not leave him as a pile of ashes. In allowing himself to become vulnerable enough to tell me the truth of his experience, purification began. Working on this book has given him a double dose of vulnerability. He has had to relive each mission and heartbreak again as he retells his story. This book is raw in its honesty and vulnerability. Please treat it with the same honesty and openness in which it is offered to you. You will be transformed in your understanding of humanity. Respect it and invite it to burn up any resistance in you which obstructs you from receiving its truth to purify you…"
“I invite you, the reader, not to get trapped in the intensity and overwhelming nature of this narrative. If you get snared in personal shock, judgments, and opinions, you will miss the truth of the message which ultimately can bring about understanding, and radical change. This writing has the potential to shake you to your core and inspire you to open your heart and find compassion. Please allow it to touch you deeply and do its healing work. We are all in this together. You WILL be shocked. This experience is extremely shocking. Some of you will be shocked, because you won’t want to believe such evil demands were placed on a young man at the tender age of 18 years and that he did such evil deeds in the name of “freedom and liberty”. And you won’t want to even entertain the notion that this is not just one veteran’s story. There are thousands of stories akin to this one.”
"Within 2-1/2 years I became guilty of planning and assisting in the slaughter of thousands, and was directly responsible for the killing of >300, from a distance, close up, and personal. I had become everything I despised...”
Rubicon