Atrocities, PTSD & Responsibilities

"Their intention is to kill and they will, they will"

An excerpt from X Rubicon, Boys And Men: Responsibility

House On A Hill - The Pretty Reckless

Somewhere in the end of all this hate
There's a light ahead
That shines into this grave that's in the end of all this pain
In the night ahead there's a light upon this

House on a hill
The living, living still
Their intention is to kill and they will, they will
But the children are doing fine
I think about them all the time
Until they drink the wine and they will, they will, they will

Somewhere in the end we're all insane
To think a light ahead can save us from this
Grave that's in the end of all this pain
In the night ahead there's a light up on this

House on a hill
The living, living still
Their intention is to kill and they will, they will
But the children are doing fine
I think about them all the time
Until they drink the wine and they will, they will, they will

I am not afraid
I won't burn out in this place
My intention is to fade and I will, I will
In this

House on a hill
The dead are living still
With intentions to kill and they will, they will
Keep your children safe inside
Out of pocket, out of mind
Until they drink the wine and they will, they will, they will

If you’ve already gotten out of the system, and you’ve been in combat, you most likely have PTSD from your participation. Some get caught in the dregs of depression from PTSD and cannot get out or forgive themselves. Many have secret kills involving civilians or retribution, and the burden of carrying those memories is a struggle to say the least. And seeing that the VA is no better at treating PTSD than than anyone else (and may even be worse because they are a false war apologist, and they label everyone in uniform a “warrior” – which propaganda opiate gets repeated in third party “help” programs), and you may have trust issues and anger regarding the failure of the VA and their apologist stance, then you must gather your wits and place the burden upon the civilian mental health system. They are not all that great either dealing with PTSD because many of the therapists and doctors, just like those in the VA, are virgins talking about sex, and many practitioners prefer to direct vets to the VA which has failed them, however, that must not be allowed because ALL are responsible to vets for what has been wrought in the country’s and citizens’ names. Make your GP participate and prescribe an alpha- or beta- blocker so at least you can regain some sleep. Take THC gummies to stay calm. Seek out psychoactive solutions to expand your own thinking, like LSD or Magic Mushrooms. Tell your politician that they are as responsible as you for what has been wrought and they should be paying for these things. Make the civilian system step up and provide combat trauma specialists, especially for perpetrators – if they can do it for cops, then they certainly can do it for vets. You must be honest and open with anyone about what you’ve done. Civilians have no right to be protected from the details of what they have helped make happen. Younger men and boys must be made to understand the consequences to themselves and the society regarding war and conflicts, especially secret proxy wars and conflicts started by the CIA. Virgins talking about sex must be corrected. But most importantly, you must throw yourself into sex and love, not with prostitutes, but with someone you will commit to and who will commit to you. You must stay engaged in the life-giving and sharing properties of sex and love in order to stay human, and not just become a self-hating and angry retributive animal. You must allow yourself to love and be loved.

Responsibility

There are laws in many states allowing that a home owned by a couple cannot be taken for debt owed by one spouse. Creditors hate these laws. They argue that how can a house be owned 100% by each person? While failing the blind math test, it makes total sense and it completely satisfies the social test. Guilt and responsibility for war and secret proxy wars is much like this. I am 100% responsible for what I’ve done, yet, YOU are also 100% responsible for what I’ve done; the government is 100% responsible for what I’ve done; capitalists are 100% responsible; chicken hawks are 100% responsible; anti-communists are 100% responsible; Zionists and Christians are 100% responsible; virgins talking about sex are 100% responsible; etc… You simply can’t call for war, slaughter, and destruction like you’re calling a dog; you can’t allow these things to be done in your name and then just turn your head away when you find it uncomfortable. "With great power comes great responsibility", which in turn requires thought and discussion, especially when the consequences are so great.

There have been many theories espoused concerning the fall of Rome (and these same theories could apply to any imperial government); but the fact of the matter is Rome and other imperial governments fail for a few basic reasons. First, you cannot steal (peace, land, property, lives) from the rest of the world and expect respect – only hate and anger. If the legislative power (Representatives and Senate) is too weak and relinquishes its authority to kings, emperors, presidents, and executive agency then all decision making is done in secret with power and perpetuation of the status quo in mind. What is that status quo? In a word, Corruption. All governments fail from Corruption because they fail to defeat it, rather they choose to appease it for personal gain. Legislators’ and party pockets are lined with corporate and foreign cash. Presidents lose their better sensibilities (if they ever had any – yes you Obama) and seek power through foreign interventions and stealing. Understanding history will spell out in detail that Corruption killed Rome, and it will kill the US.

Everyone must make their representatives and senators respond and force change upon a runaway system of secret undeclared conflicts and actions. Regime change as a tool must be taken away from the CIA, and the Dulles CIA must be converted into something better, healthier, and incorruptible. The US must cede authority to the United Nations to control death and destruction, and commit to making a better conflict free world environment, which must start first and foremost with stopping support for the fascist apartheid regimes like Israel. The Presidents need to be reigned in to original Constitutional powers only – the imperial presidencies must end. The US needs to support and help expand the United Nations and the International Criminal Court, and if they want to indict George Bush, Donald Trump, Joe Biden, Benjamin Netanyahu, etc… let them take them, and we should support it. Send them all for retirement at the “Fletcher Memorial Home for Colonial Wasters of Life and Limb” (Pink Floyd). The world will not become a safer or more livable place until all Americans commit to removing corporate, religious, gender, and secret power in politics, and making politicians responsible for the decisions they make and participate in. Secrecy should not prevail in a democracy, and a democracy cannot prevail if it allows secrecy.

YOU – every single last fucking one of you – are responsible and owe every veteran, those who have lost their lives, and those who must continue to live with what they’ve done in your name. It’s time for YOU to step up. Those who remain silent give consent.

“Being a witness applies to the individual and the people of [America]. If we individual [Americans] are witnesses to the people, then there will be a people [America]. If we individual [Americans] fail to be witnesses, there will be no people. To be a witness means to be involved, to accept responsibility. Upon the involvement in the responsibility of the individual [Americans] the very existence of the people depends. To witness man’s cruelty to man and remain indifferent is an act of betrayal of the legacy of [America]; it would be a grave sin for the [Americans] of our day to go on enjoying the prosperity and comforts of this age and to remain deaf to the sufferings of our brethren, not to care when they are oppressed, not to feel hurt when they are molested.”

The Insecurity Of Freedom – A Declaration Of Conscience – Abraham Joshua Heschel

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Rubicon spent just under three years as a military Scout. During that time he was awarded the “AF Cross, 2 Silver Stars, 4 Bronze Stars, Defense Superior Service Medal, AF Good Conduct Medal, and the CIA Distinguished Service Medal” (ODNI). When he refused to kill further, he was stripped of these awards and was abandoned with his PTSD by the military and thrown away.

Sean Griobhtha (gree-O-tah) is a combat veteran. His latest book is X Rubicon: Crossing Life, Sex, Love, & Killing in CIA Proxy Wars: An indictment of US Citizens: ignorantia non excusat, which details the life of Rubicon, another combat veteran. You can find him mostly on SubStack. He can be reached at O.Griobhtha+XRubicon@gmail.com.